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Wednesday, Wordpress and Burnout

Feeling a little frazzled again this morning. Most of that due to a Bad Air Day. But taking a Mental Health Break may be in order. Or at least taking better Mental Health Measures until I feel more secure.

In this case, Doctor Me prescribes more Wifey Hugs, stat.

Another potential cure is starting a Secret Blog to talk about ALL of my mental bullshit when I'm going through it. I want to talk about my emotions without recriminations, so it won't be linked to all the rest of my nonsense.

Honestly, I think ninety percent of the anxiety I'm having right now is talking about it with the people responsible for making it a thing. Because I will become the bad guy and I feel terrible about being that. It's a whole process.

So... I'm starting something new today. Or tomorrow. Not under my usual aliases. Good luck finding it, I'm not advertising.

It's Date Night today. I do what I can when I can and I can do no better than that.

So let's have a story.

Tuesday, Patreon, Nerfing and Nonsense

Beloved and I tried to remove the remaining acrylic on my nails and... nothing shifted. Even literally soaking my nails in acetone did squat. So I'm left with picking it off or growing it off.

Lucky my nails grow fast.

It's Patreon day today! I get to unearth all the cool stuff I deem fit to share with my Esteemed Patrons, and then post it so they can take a peeksie.

Yay.

I also have to go about nerfing the Lockbox of

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Long Monday, Sleeplessness Shenanigans

I didn't get a lot of sleep, last night. Or this morning. Thanks, Anxiety, for making sure I can only squeeze in four hours at a time.

Not helped by Beloved deciding she wanted to whirlwind the entire house JUST as I was trying to sleep. So I'm more than a little wrecked today.

Blargh.

So wrecked that I didn't blog or publish until now. Whoops.

I do not expect a lot out of myself on Mondays.

The most I plan on

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Sunday, Game Night Shenanigans

Achievement unlocked: Buried hatchets. Cleared the air with involved parties and renewed backup systems in place. Huzzah.

Tonight, my players fight a dragon. Yay.

This morning, I had a good old-fashioned anxiety attack and used it to get some writing in [eventually]. Namely, getting the Tale Foundry prompt entry written early.

I make sleeplessness work for me.

Might as well, right?

I have no further plans than resting my wrists [I borked them a little whilst doing the prompt story] and scheduling

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Saturday, Change of PLNs

My Beloved was going to whisk me away for fun times and shopping and so on. BUT MeMum needs fuel for her mower, so offski I poddle on that mission. We might even get to clear the air on some issues between us.

[I didn't want to do that alone but... circumstances are beyond my control]

With luck and good fortune and a LOT of patience -most likely on my part- we might get back to amiable circumstances.

Sigh.

Onwards to story,

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Friday, Unfuckening and Stuff

I have so many things I have been procrastinating about, and one of them is plugging species info into Alfarell. I have a few that need elucidation.

That will give me something to show my Patrons, next week.

Bad news: No apology from the antagonist.
Good news: No revenge either.

I was having anxious conniptions about that all day yesterday. To the point where it impeded my ability to set-dress the level I just finished.

In my plans for today are cleaning

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Thursday, and the thing with yesterday.

The story of yesterday starts with the day before. I shall leave out the details to preserve the innocent and guilty alike.

On Tuesday, a person very close to my heart decided to send me a set of serial insults. Why? Because I could not perform a task according to their in-skull instructions. And because I missed doing a task on Monday [my most tired day of the week] this was two sins in four days.

So when I needed a day

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I Need a Day

The cyclone headache isn't going anywhere.

I've actually had a guilt cry over the things I can and cannot contribute to my Patreon content.

I've had an emotional blow-up over things that, from a certain perspective, are inconsequential. To the people involved, they're consequential as hell, but in the grand scheme of everything... I don't even know any more.

I'm burned out.

I need a day.

So... I am disconnecting from online activity for all of Wednesday. Therefore, Wordpress Wednesday will be

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Tuesday, Patreon and Dungeon building

I have a cyclone headache and the painkillers have done JACK SQUAT this morning. I shall be doing all computer things with sunnies on. Blargh.

The good news is that I'm nearly done with creating Level 10 of 23. If I make it to level 12, I can call myself halfway done with building the entire dang dungeon.

But I won't relax until I am DONE done with it all.

Today's the day I put Patreon rewards up for everyone. No new

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Long Monday, the Exhaustening

It's been a fun game, not gonna lie. My players thought they could fill in an entire hour with faffing about, then decided to try sneaking up to the Dragon and then...

They didn't have a fucking plan of attack.

They have a week to think of one whilst I decide on the resolution to the cliffhanger.

I shall do my story stream, then waken the rest of my house before catching what nap I can before the TaleFoundry readings.

My voice

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Sunday, Supertired

It's almost noon, and my throat hurts. I might need to tone down Gort's voice because it does things to me.

OR it could because Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season has made me cough and have lung issues.

It's hard to tell. I shall make myself some Shandy and hope for the best. And I have to check on my meds supplies because FUCK Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season.

It keeps kicking my butt.

The good news is that ScoMo is No Mo'. He

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Saturday, Democracy Sausage and Sog

It's raining, the yard's a quagmire, and I will put my vote in to change ScoMo's job title today. Yay.

Also coming with are Beloved and Mayhem. Beloved and I are planning to wear our pride pins to ward off spruikers for the White One Australia Party and the United Fascist Australia Party. Both of those parties are bigoted gits and I can't believe they have a following.

Then again, the orange canker sore who used to be POTUS has a following

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Friday, Unfuckening vs Blobbification

I have unfuckening to do, but I also want to blob myself into unconsciousness. I can start with the minimum and try from there.

I missed out on blobbing with Beloved last night because I firkin passed out. Then I was awake at roughly midnight to catch Miss Chaos bouncing about like a mad thing.

She at least has four hours' of sleep now. This might help her stay awake at school. I can hope.

There's also Starters to feed, Bikkie to

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Thursday, Progress and PLNs

I have finished building the walls and floors of level 9 of 23. Now I have to furnish and add mobs to level 9 of 23. THEN I start on level 10 of 23. Which I hope to heaven will be nice and easy to construct.

...too many dang diagonals and round rooms in this one gone. Pleh.

I find out when I am done furnishing level 9 though. No peeking. If I looked at the entire thing, I would balk and

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Wednesday, Wordpress & Date PLNs

I am very tired -_- So tired that I slept until the alarm this morning. The wet weather is getting to me and all I want to do today is Be Blob.

BUT we also need to purchase kitter foods, cream, and probably some other essentials [like our favourite flavour sauces] and that's going to take even more out of me.

I might propose a Grand Day In for date night this evening. Get some ridiculous face masks, order a platter

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