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Feeling "heavy"

It's day three on my 'chill pills', aka Seratonin. I still don't know how much of my assorted symptoms are psychosomatic, but today is an old friend.

I'm feeling 'heavy'. It's kind of like trying to walk after you've been in the pool for a few hours. Gravity feels like you're walking on Saturn or some similar, high-gravity world. It's like that, only it doesn't easily wear off and it comes with a side of difficulty with my breathing.

It's not asthma. It's just... more difficult to use my muscles to breathe in. An effort of will.

I feel weirdly floaty, but inside my own head. The rest of me is difficult to move.

And for the first time in a subjective forever... I'm well-rested.

Of course, the 'heaviness' impacts on that, but I'd rather have the rest to be honest.

If I actually had more energy to do things, that would be nice too.

Challenge #01404-C309: Fluff

Actual or mental popcorn. --Knitnan

They were sitting together on the couch, with buckets of butter-flavoured popcorn, and watching an archived entertainment as part of Ambassador Shayde's greater day job.

Rael gradually acquired the sensation that this particular entertainment had little worth.

"Is there a message behind this?"

"Eh... no' really."

"Is it art?"

"I think it's s'posed'a be funny," she said, dripping popcorn into her waiting mouth. "I don't get a lot of it."

"Me neither." He frowned at a

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Chillaxin'

I'm having a lovely lazy Saturday, today.

Nothing more planned than slobbing about and having a good, old-fashioned relax-a-thon.

For example: I've taken twenty minutes to get this far.

And I've yet to make it to breakfast :P

I'd better go do that.

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Challenge #01403-C308: Making Wishes Three

Someone actually makes three sensible wishes. Knitnan

"Three wishes, you say," said Lynn. "May I think about them?"

"Of course," said the Djinn. "But no thinking out loud."

Lynn sat on a handy rock and took out her notebook and pencil. The good one with the decent eraser. She wrote, World peace and remembered that episode of the X-files. No. What she needed was unbreakable, unbendable, non-interpretable set of wishes. She stuck her chewelry gem in her mouth and got to really

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Teh PLN

I got some ducks in a row and actually talked about sorting out things I've been in fear of fixing for some extended time. Yay.

Now I have to go through with it. Boo.

Today, teh PLN involves going back to the doctor and hashing out a mental health care plan. And I know the drill Talk About The Worst Of It. Loads of people whiffle their way out of getting help with the same rationalisations they use to pretend everything's fine:

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Challenge #01402-C307: Pressed Souls

"Keep a diary, Desrie! One day it may keep you." -- Anon Guest

It sounded... ominous. Desrie heard it from everyone, every day. Sometimes, she saw people with them. Thick, heavy tomes which promised to last them the rest of their lives.

And some that were so thin...

How could people stand to watch those pages dwindle down? How could they want to write the last page?

Desrie didn't have a choice, in the end. Her mother made her visit the Diary

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Procrasti-not

I made the appointment to see the doctor about getting a referral to see a shrink to sort out my mental issues. [...that chased the rat that ate the malt that lay in the house that Jack built] This is... some momentous momentum for me.

I've been procrastinating about this since my friendo came to visit and assist in the great unfuckening. But I'm running out of stuff to procrastinate about and making me do the thing, even now, has been an

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Challenge #01401-C306: Give it All You Got

They were her audience, and she was always gracious towards them. -- Anon Guest

The performance had been draining. Of course it was. She had sweat pooling in places no polite person ever spoke of in mixed company. She had worn her skin thin in other, unmentionable places.

But, because she was the star, people insisted on meeting her after the show. Some to talk, some to embrace or kiss, some to criticise. Some to appreciate what hard work she had done,

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Milestones and Procrastination

I've hit a new low, today! 88.5 kilos, hooray. And I have Sardine Pizza to thank for it.

Yes, it's one of my dietary abominations. Take one $3 pizza from Aldi's, and two tins of Golden Circle sardines. Add the sardines to the pizza, garnish with mushrooms and cheese, and bake according to the pizza box instructions.

Since the Golden Circle sardines are super big, this pizza is super-filling, and I only had two slices of this abomination and it kept

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Challenge #01400-C305: Incomprehensible Biology

Human females become the most feared aspect of humanity when aliens realize that they regularly bleed once a month as part of their reproductive cycle. -- YizukiKhons

When venturing into the wild spaces, those territories outside of the Galactic Alliance, it is vitally necessary to have at least one human on the crew. Their pack-bonding and protective capabilities were highly prized in wild space.

Such was the case with the TikTavi, where the ship's human had a name unpronounceable by the crew.

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Back to work,huzzah

I finally did that video I've been gassing about since forever. Soon to be yet another ignored and flagged music video on YouTube. See if you can find it.

I also found those silver split rings, so I can get on with finishing those earrings I've been gassing about.

And now that it's November, I can make that doctor's appointment I've been gassing about, too. Just... not for today, because it's practically a national holiday. I want to see the doctor, not

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Challenge #01399-C304: Home Again, Home Again

Skelebro(s?) coming to collect Frisk from interdimensional adventures -- Anon Guest

"Look, this kid belongs to somebody, Wander. We've been through this."

Wander was doing his puppy-eyes again. "I know, Sylvia... but just look at hir. Ze's so cute..."

Frisk signed, I knew I shouldn't have worn the tutu today, but ze signed it to beings who did not understand hir. Once again, actions spoke louder than sign language.

"...there ya are, kiddo."

Frisk shrieked a tiny noise of glee and

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The Big... Evening

It's All Hallow's Eve, so not only do I have to remind my dear readers that my latest free story is available for All Hallow's Read, but I also have to get three sets of ducks in a row. And film myself putting on makeup, and do Chaos' makeup, and help everyone with their costumes...

...andandandandand...

I'm sure much fun will be had, but shortly before that, there will be snarling, frustration, and yelling.

On the plus side, there might be a

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Challenge #01397-C302: Weird Encounters

Frisk Meets....

1) The Mystery Skulls

2) Scooby Doo -- Anon Guest

[AN: This puts the gap count down to ONE. Also, I'm assuming you mean the Mystery Skulls of MSA]

1)

Frisk signed, You're new. Hello.

The formally-dressed Skeleton in front of hir glared down at the child. He was apparently nodding to a beat that Frisk couldn't hear. He didn't speak, and that could be because he didn't have a lower jaw.

Frisk tried offering him some monster food. A

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Ah, Sideways

Printing the new HUD holder for my car has entered 24 hours of manufacture. And Mayhem decided to take things that weren't his. So we had to go out and make him pay for replacements. As well as his own supply.

I'm not sure this will work, but it might help Mayhem understand that money is a limited resource, and so are the things you can get for it.

So I start my day at nearly eleven AM to try and write

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