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Procrasti-not

I made the appointment to see the doctor about getting a referral to see a shrink to sort out my mental issues. [...that chased the rat that ate the malt that lay in the house that Jack built] This is... some momentous momentum for me.

I've been procrastinating about this since my friendo came to visit and assist in the great unfuckening. But I'm running out of stuff to procrastinate about and making me do the thing, even now, has been an uphill battle.

I've been... mostly okay... at pretending to be normal. Normal-ish. Functionally weird. Acceptably bizarre... for roughly forty-four years.

But it's getting obvious that I have enough issues to run a periodicals library, so I need some actual help that doesn't put anyone out of their way.

And the mental effort required to pull that off is... well, it took most of my reserves. Again. Plus I'm in that peculiar state where I can't tell whether my difficulty breathing is a stress issue, an asthma issue, or a depression issue. Either way, it's a day of sighs for me.

But it's a day of sighs with the ball beginning to roll towards help. And not up and down Sisyphus' hill like usual.

Inertia is a harsh mistress.

I got the floor clean. Huzzah. I have to get a new battery for my floor-mopping bot because I love it and I can't afford a new one. Boo. I have to finish those earrings, do my story, and work on at least one book.

And sort out a dinner, sometime in the middle of all that.

Not helped by Mayhem being obstinate again. I need help from my family that is rare in happening. But, on the plus side, I witnessed Beloved helping with Chaos' hair. This is a stunning rarity and I encourage the novelty.

And I've started gassing about getting one of those makeover dollies so that everyone can practice.

There's so much gas about me, that it's amazing I'm not Jupiter.

Milestones and Procrastination

I've hit a new low, today! 88.5 kilos, hooray. And I have Sardine Pizza to thank for it.

Yes, it's one of my dietary abominations. Take one $3 pizza from Aldi's, and two tins of Golden Circle sardines. Add the sardines to the pizza, garnish with mushrooms and cheese, and bake according to the pizza box instructions.

Since the Golden Circle sardines are super big, this pizza is super-filling, and I only had two slices of this abomination and it kept

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Back to work,huzzah

I finally did that video I've been gassing about since forever. Soon to be yet another ignored and flagged music video on YouTube. See if you can find it.

I also found those silver split rings, so I can get on with finishing those earrings I've been gassing about.

And now that it's November, I can make that doctor's appointment I've been gassing about, too. Just... not for today, because it's practically a national holiday. I want to see the doctor, not

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The Big... Evening

It's All Hallow's Eve, so not only do I have to remind my dear readers that my latest free story is available for All Hallow's Read, but I also have to get three sets of ducks in a row. And film myself putting on makeup, and do Chaos' makeup, and help everyone with their costumes...

...andandandandand...

I'm sure much fun will be had, but shortly before that, there will be snarling, frustration, and yelling.

On the plus side, there might be a

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Ah, Sideways

Printing the new HUD holder for my car has entered 24 hours of manufacture. And Mayhem decided to take things that weren't his. So we had to go out and make him pay for replacements. As well as his own supply.

I'm not sure this will work, but it might help Mayhem understand that money is a limited resource, and so are the things you can get for it.

So I start my day at nearly eleven AM to try and write

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All set up

All props are prepped. I'm currently wear-testing the crank for my costume [on an old belt, which fits with the character]. I got $32 worth of wrapped lollies to potentially give out to fellow Halloweenies as they come by our door.

I even have some dollar shop decorations up to let the neighbours know that here there be sweeties.

Mayhem's morph suit is falling apart, which is what one might expect from a dollar shop deal. He needs to repair it, but

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Success?

My Da always used to say, "Nothing succeeds like a toothless budgie," and none of us could stop him. Well, the much-gassed-about nommables recipe is technically a success. In that Beloved likes them.

It is NOT a success for my energy levels.

Today's recipe is... well...

Expectation:

Reality:

But never fear, dear readers, I shall document how this absolute disaster unfolded and what I plan to do to make it better next time.

Noms

Implements:

  • Measuring spoons and cups
  • 2 mixing bowls
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Sdrawkcab

So let's recap:

  • I forgot to post yesterday's Instant on Tumblr
  • Nobody noticed
  • I spent so much energy fetching the ingredients for the proposed noms that I had zero energy to actually make said noms
  • I had trouble going to sleep last night
  • I had trouble staying asleep last night
  • I woke up tired
  • And the process of making myself make those noms meant that I missed out on most of my morning activity. Including my daily walk and dog-annoying.

I have

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MONEY!

Beloved got paid, yesterday, which means I have money in the bank today. Which means that I can go out and get the life essentials, like almond milk, tub fruit, and ingredients for some adjusted noms.

The recipe originally hails from this tumblr post but I've done some twiddling.

I've replaced the sugar with Stevia, and the peanuts with almonds, and will probably remove as much of the salt as I can get away with by default. Since you can't get salted,

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Good news, everyone!

I got the short list back from the lovely people at AR&E, agent-finders at large.

I also got a very nice letter saying I should try all of them at once, just for the ego boost. I'm sorry, Beverly, but all the ego boosting in the world is not worth one atom of being rude.

Agents and writers alike tell you every day that simultaneous submissions, especially lying about it by omission, is beyond nasty. Just. No. The letter says

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Broken 'flow'

I get used to doing things a certain way. I get up, wee, weigh myself [89.3kilos. The first time I've been below 90 since age 20!], water the garden, rouse the kids, shower, and get on with keeping everyone in line.

Then I do my blog, Instant Story, and any other writing that I want or have to do.

But when things screw that up, it really screws up.

Yesterday, I assumed that I'd done my Instant. Why? Because yesterday was

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Fun times ahead

I've been trying to transfer my music files into #myphonebygoogle, with varying degrees of success. Our current, dropbox model has hit a snag, in that the phone must be active in order to download.

Google Pixel has a maximum activation period of half an hour. There is no 'never' option and no assumption that a user is clever enough to hook the phone up to a power source whilst that shit is going on.

I mean, come on, google. We were smart

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I am frustrate

On the continuing saga of New Phone Wat Dis(aka #myphonebygoogle), I have finally combatted the hassle of getting my music data onto my actual phone. The caveat being that the file manager in question will also play random shit that's content for games. We'll work around that when the time comes.

And speaking of workarounds... I did some 3D drafting for Bitzer's new hip handle, this morning. And once done, it should have been an easy matter to transfer those files

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#myphonebygoogle

I love that Google is cheeky enough to bring out a bigger, brighter, better phone than the iPhone7.

And I have to confess that setting up new apps to supplant the old ones I'm used to is a pain in the arse.

But the biggest pain in the arse is music. Porting ALL my music from iTunes is like unto a labour of Hercules. And it's not just because I own something like five weeks' worth of music.

No, it's because Apple

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Google Pixel!

So I'm a long-time Apple nerd, all the way back to the late eighties when I got my first Mac Classic.

But that time is past.

Basically because Apple repeatedly drops the ball by coming out with substandard crap and trying to market it as what the people want. If the people move, en masse, to a better product, then the companies will see what the people really want.

And better yet, I'm getting it for free because Telstra has an upgrade-your-phone

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