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Second Day to Take

Short version: The family wants extra time to slack off.

Long version: The next Jurassic Park movie is playing at freaking last and I'm fairly certain they also want to play loads of Factorio again.

I'm allowing it.

Monday, I will begin posting my Blasts manually. Mostly because, every time I do that, Streemian comes back to life again. And it's been more than a month of inertia on this.

I no longer have a novel to summarise, and that frees up some time in my day. As does having possession of a kick-arse grilling machine.

So I'm going to have time to post those things from now on. Just... not today. Because self-care is important care, and self-care includes having a totally self-indulgent day counts as self-care. Because family bonding and I really need a break.

And you keep getting free stories, so why should you be complaining?

Done! Hugs Plz

I have just accomplished all the things that have terrified me for a firkin month.

  • Appointment for jabs scheduled
  • Appointment for car service scheduled
  • New mower person contacted
  • MOTHERFUCKING SUMMARY DONE AND SENT OFF TO POTENTIAL AGENT

So I am most definitely taking a majority of a day so I can recover from all the anxiety this is causing. Not to mention that this potential agent is literally my last chance according to the people I sent US$400 for the list.

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Holidays... Mostly

School holidays commence this afternoon. Huzzah. I have two weeks of mostly living in my Kigu to look forward to.

Except Monday. I'm getting my flu needle then. For all other things, I am jamming in my toe socks and Kigu and Not Going Anywhere. So there.

So of course my Beloved has plans to get me out and make me do stuff. Which will happen with the mandatory whining.

Beloved has plans all the time. One of which will arrive today.

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Dilly Dally Dawdle

I accomplished two things:

  1. I called the mowing company and they're going to give us a quote
  2. I reached my protein intake goal

This is a massive hurdle as I spent some five years pre-keto training my body to run on very little indeed. Which wrought living HELL on my metabolism and may be one of the root causes of my lingering sleep issues. Y'know, alongside anxiety. And just... being fucked up.

So getting my metabolism back to some variety of a

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Turn Up For the Books

Mayhem has PLNs to finish this semester early by getting their work done ahead of time. Which means most of today, and all of the rest of the week are his to do with as he pleases. Well. Except for the Traineeship. That's still going on.

But there is a minimum of 24hrs in which to faff, and I think he plans to enjoy that.

Meanwhile, I had my car service people call me, for which I am grateful indeed. One less

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Blurgledy

I should most definitely not stay up until 10 at night watching murder documentaries.

I should most definitely not stay up until 10 at night playing Factorio.

I should get to bed at a reasonable hour - anywhere between eight and nine thirty - and get a reasonable amount of sleep.

I should focus on doing the things that needs must be done, instead of faffing off to play a building-things-incessantly game.

Long story short, I didn't get a lot of sleep

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Whoops, I Procrastinated

Shitty internet yesterday made me derail myself and I didn't get around to my wordpress thing until this morning. Which I could have done at 4AM when I couldn't sleep because I don't even know.

Perhaps, when my diet is more balanced, I will sleep better. It worked in the early days of Keto when I was having more protein. Perhaps it will work again.

In the meantime, I re-learn my habits, listen to my cravings, and sort my shit out. Sometimes

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Reconfiguring the Diet

You know that I've been worrying about my weight for a while, since it's been creeping upwards for some time.

And the answer is: Protein-phobia.

Science backs this up, but humans need a certain amount of protein, and it's more like forty to fifty percent of our diets rather than the ten to twenty the militant vegans dieticians have been recommending.

The more protein you have, the fuller you feel. The fuller you feel, the less you eat. Simple enough, and it

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Winter "Fashion"

I have rainbow toe socks on. Said socks feature contrasting, puffy paint stars printed on them. Added to these is my aforementioned Spiro Kigurumi. And to protect my toe socks, I am wearing crocs.

You can bet money that I'm not exiting the house like this.

I'm taking another day. Basically, I have little else planned but writing today's Instant and faffing about with games.

Play is just as important as work, and that's what today's about. Tomorrow, I'll be doing my

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TGIF?

Fridays are my good days. Despite the workload, I can spend all day long in my writer zone, get everything lined up, and still have time to play around with stuff before the brat run to go collect Mayhem in the evening.

I almost messed up yesterday by forgetting to do my chapters of Adapting. But I remembered and I did it and I actually got a full night's sleep.

Win-win, as far as I'm concerned.

Using a food tracker (properly calibrated)

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Progress?

Good news: A tablet of Melatonin helped me sleep for most of the night and I approach today with a much better energy level.

Bad news: I'm still gaining a little bit of weight.

BUT that should change soon, because I'm monitoring my intake and making certain that I get the proper balance of macros. With some help on the supply side from Beloved because I have $10 that isn't already spoken for.

Fingers crossed it works, and that something else naughty

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Sideways!

Disorganised today, dat-organised tomorrow.

And today was super-duper disorganised.

Because:

  • I didn't wanna get out of bed
  • Beloved needed me to track my food again
  • Which involved faffing about with a new app
  • Which made us late getting Mayhem to school
  • Chaos decided that she was "too tired" to be ready on time

And everything else has been a royal kerfluffle ever since.

I am tracking my macros, now, so that's a thing. And we'll likely find out that I'm nowhere near

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Ugh... Not Again

I've been having sleep issues. My internal alarm clock is once again set on 'Fuck You'. We have some melatonin, so maybe one of those will help me through the night and reset my defaults.

And despite my best efforts, I'm gaining weight. I'm up to the 76 mark, and I don't know why. It's not because I'm eating too much. It might be because I'm eating too little. Or it could be that the pouring cream I picked up cheap is

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Don't Panic!

I plain old forgot to write a thing for my Wordpress. Those who come here to find out what the fuck will be glad to know that I invested my time in...

[drumroll]

Thirty seconds of animation in a music video I'm making in Adobe Animate. Yay.

I will be writing something Op-Ed-y eventually. I already have a title: Re-spec Mah Prioritah. Which is basically "I didn't do anything productive" in another hat. This hat is called, "I did something productive, but

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Another Odd Day

Apparently, this series of make-up days on Sundays is so that the Year 12's in the system can exit school with a green mark in their ledgers. Mayhem's year 11 as far as my spotty memory serves me. But whatever. The sooner he's done, the sooner he can look for after-school employment.

I won't be doing my Instant until after I get back from my round trip, because time in a nice warm bed on a weekend is indeed precious.

Today, fates

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