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Procrastination!

I should be getting a nice shopping cart full of findings from AliExpress, but I'm dawdling. I'm thinking too hard about the simplest things I could make versus the things I should be selling. I need to think bare minimum whilst a majority of my culch is missing without a trace. Which I find personally very annoying.

Very annoying things stick with me too well. I remember a large assortment of betrayals and unintentional cruelty towards me... and I remember things like a fucking bag the size of a human going AWOL. Or a tube of 44pr hand-made earrings vanishing just as it got to its destination.

These things get to me. And they just... stay there.

I can't fathom why my own brain is this cruel to me, but...

I swear. If I could just find ALL of my culch, I could get moving.

SIGH.

I am going to firkin make myself get some new bits and bobs. I am going to get the things I need. All the things I need. So I can make non-standard jewellery for non-standard ladies.

Soon.

I just... I know I'd feel more comfortable about it whilst talking it over with Beloved. I like discussing things before I make what has to be a big decision.

...and I'm scared of starting because - what if fail?

I have to remember my own pep talk. The only way to fail is never to try. If I fail after I tried - at least I had a go at it and I KNOW that.

...but it's firkin hard without someone to hang on to for safety. And it's obviously hard because I've just now finished writing this entry at minutes to ten AM.

Procrastination is my copilot.

Okay, that just happened...

Thanks to sharing yesterday's instant to the Steampunk tag on Tumblr, I now have three more followers who do not do the porn thing. I could definitely do without the blogs who do the porn thing.

I'm more about the romance than the sex. Just saying. But -hey- if you love having looping gifs all over your dash of people doing their thing, then that's your thing. It's just not mine.

Anyway. I'm only just starting to get into Steampunk, so my

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Please look behind the curtain

Further to yesterday's rant musings, I thought I might encourage you to take your entertainment at more than face value.

Like Dorothy and Toto, take a look at the man behind the curtain.

By which I mean, spend some time watching Making of documentaries. Or even some instructional How to videos. Or ask your nearest artistic hero (if you can) what their process is.

I know, it might bore you to tears. You can be brave for just one day.

I have

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The Spreading Devaluation of Creativity

Yeah, you know I don't have much in my life worth blogging about when you read a title like that. My life got boring, so I'd like to bring up a little something that's been bugging me for a while.

Ever since computers came into play in evaluating education, the "soft" fields of study, the ones where appreciation is subjective, started getting eroded. Why? Computers could only crunch definite numbers. Therefore, only the definitely quantifiable achievements ever got notice. And funding.

And

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Rare Stream!

I'm not doing very much of my own stuff right now because David Michael "The Spine" Bennett is streaming.

He usually streams on Periscope, which I can NOT make work for me. So this is a supremely rare treat.

And even better, he's working on one of my favourites, Photographic Memories [which I have bootlegged the demo of for my collection].

I am dead from teh luvs.

Story later. MUCH later.

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I just had the best idea

I only had a half-walk today. Just around one block. Because Autumn is a bitch and I neglected to put my inhaler in my long pants. But that doesn't matter so much.

The idea is a little bit Playing Beattie Bow and a little bit Chronicles of Narnia and a lot of steampunk and a dash of solarpunk and some weird phenomena thrown in.

There have been incidents of people stepping through time and stepping back again. Local wormholes, bla bla, it

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The best-laid plans...

Have gone so firkin agley that they turned out to be un-plans. Wuzgunnas, in fact.

I wuzgunna go and get myself a set of orthopaedic sandals so I didn't have my foot-sweat trying to eat my feet in my already orthopaedic trainers. BUT... the initial model I wanted was both suddenly too expensive [the price had seemingly gone up from $79.95 to $109.95] but also lacked the heel cushioning I desperately need in order to walk with relative ease. The

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Payday! And other inconveniences

Made you look. The inconveniences of payday are that we have to pay all our outstanding bills before we get on with the business of paying for food and treats. Which is downright depressing.

BUT it's also going to keep us alive and chugging along, so whatever.

I'm thinking about adding a regular payment to my Dreams Fund so I'm not so frelling disheartened by it all, all the time. If I can just keep my hands off of it for consecutive

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Juggling Life

I had a bit of a row with Beloved about money again. Domestic arguments always seem to start with income and inlaws. But this time, it included outgoing moneys as well.

I'm a frugal little bean and I try not to have extravagant expenditure. I try to get as much as I can out of as little as possible, and going over that allotment makes me sad, angry, and bitter. Especially when I've done my best scrimping, only to find that Beloved

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Thank you for your suggestion, but...

About a week ago, MeMum suggested that I should have breakfast before I go on my daily walk. Apparently it's supposed to help boost my metabolism and burn fat and thereby assist in losing weight.

It hasn't been that effective because I sit at my computer and browse Tumblr whilst I ingest. Because multi-tasking is a habit that's more or less expected, these days.

And once I'm done with breakfast, I automatically get started on my blog, story, and where applicable, my

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I just found the best motto

So I was procrastinating more than usual [it's Saturday here. Ner] and in-between playing YouTube videos and Minecraft, when I spotted this post with its equally hilarious motto.

"Whatever doesn't kill me... had better start running"

I want to wear this on a shirt. I want to have it on a cap. I want some, highly visible garment that I can firkin wear everywhere and have people read it and smirk.

I firkin love that attitude.

Even if I don't have the

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Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season already?

I'm going through the tissues like they're going out of style, right now. It could be my hardy perennial self-neglect at at work, because I've not been taking my supplements... or it could be Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season.

Allergies are such fun.

I have a whole lot of sniffling and snorting and coughing and horking up linings of my bronchial tubes to look forwards to. For extremely limited definitions of "look forwards". Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season is hell. And I have one

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Firkin sleep issues

I woke up at 3AM again.

This time, I'm keeping a journal of my wakings and potential causes. See if there's a pattern. Confirm or deny what I already suspect.

And what I suspect is - my brain is its own worst enemy.

When I woke this morning, a weird dream turned into a real logistics battle in my head and then my thoughts wouldn't shut the fuck up. So I got up and worked on some fanfic because trying to go

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Ugh

Dentist appointment, today. Gonna get that plaque scraped off my teeth et cetera. And told that I might lose my front teeth if I'm not careful.

I'm being careful as much as I can, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to get artificial incisors. Sooner or later, it's going to happen. It's pretty much inevitable.

Fortunately, my dentist is just as invested in me keeping my teeth as I am.

What I am going to do is drag my little

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I am becoming an old fart

Or maybe I'm made of old farts, it's hard to tell. Or maybe it's the good old self-neglect at work.

I'm stiff. I'm sore. I'm worn out by going to the movies ffs. Going to bed doesn't give the rest it used to. The pillow is trying to kill me.

OK I probably need to find the right kind of pillow, but it seems to be an elusive beast that uses Brigadoon as it's sole habitat. Everything has memory foam cores, these

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