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Ar En Ar

Having cleared 81K of B'Nar, I got in some good naps and some lovely steak at Hoggies. No surprise, I feel a lot better about my place in this world.

Sometimes, it helps to just... take a nap.

Of course, it's all because anxiety sucks. You get so stressed out that something snaps and the body's like, "F this S" and turns off all the adrenaline so all one is left with is the depression chemicals.

So now instead of being scared about my submission, I'm sad about the inevitability of my rejection.

Hugs help. Snuggle time with Beloved is always a balm on my shattered mind. Wish I could be with them now, but... I got shit to do and plns to go see Alita so I gotta get on with my pro level stuff.

I'm going to try and choose joy. It's hard when I'm in the funk zone, but I gotta try.

Progress?

I know where the problem is with Gears of Spud - the nebulous idle clicker I was concocting. I need to make a CSS style sheet so the layout is cemented.

Which means that my next goal-oriented HAM days are going to have "Learn CSS" on there. What it is, how to use it, how to make sure it doesn't muck up. That sort of deal.

I do know it's a way to include HTML into whatever doesn't use it, so I

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Another Full Day

I got a lot to do, of course. Another unfuckening of the house. Another Instant. Another 500 words. Another TAZ flash fanfiction.

Maybe I really am writing like I'm running out of time. Given the way the world is increasingly funked up, headed for assorted disasters - do you blame me?

I only have this life and I'm past my family average halfway point. Barring accidents and whatnot, I have my own lifetime left. Less than that.

If nothing else, I should

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Fun Was Had

The adventuring party is on the cusp of a TPK because we're being zerg rushed by a bunch of demons. It's not looking good.

My throat is sore, I'm currently existing on less than five hours' sleep, and I can not sleep.

Plus I just got a comment on a recent story via my Wordpress, which is a fairly odd angle to approach things, but I'm willing to extend the benefit of the doubt. It's difficult to derive a complete story out

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Burning at Both Ends Again

I give myself too many projects when I'm bored. Then I run out of time to do them because I overcommit to things. Then I burn out and get depressed and don't do any firkin thing.

It's a cycle. I'm trying not to ride it downhill this time around.

HAM only works when you have uninterrupted half-hours to do things. It's great for my day structure when there is no structure. When I gotta organise myself around other shit... it's not so

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A New Way

Master Mayhem is 17. In many places, that means he's expected to handle things for himself. Including himself. Therefore, I am no longer chasing him to be ready at a certain time. This is going to be interesting. My lovely little lad has ever been the type to ignore my warnings and then get smacked in the face with the consequences.

Just as an example: Mayhem has emerged from the bedroom and is now wandering the halls looking for his school bag.

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A flying start?

Mayhem went back to sleep three times this morning. He's going to need an early night tonight or he won't be prepared for school tomorrow.

Lad's in for some interesting times.

Meanwhile, Chaos is raring to go. I last saw her in her uniform and last heard her doing a giggle run up and down the hallway. She's all ready, already. Hooray. It's my dear darling Eldest who has to take a dose of personal responsibility.

He's going to get a lecture.

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Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!

We had a very nice Australia/Invasion day, yesterday. I ate too much, even if it's healthy food, when you eat too much, you gain weight. Now I have an extra kilo to shake off so I might go another fortnight on the strict plan.

I'll ask for advice from Beloved in that regard.

Today, I was reminded of one very important thing I forgot to get sorted before Back to School - SHOES.

Therefore, at a later time, there shall be

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Running around, today

It's Australia day, so the entire family is gathering in Scenic Coominya for the traditional burned offerings.

I didn't get anything done on my side-projects yesterday because my writing absorbed my personal energy (and that's okay). Plus the big plan of the evening was to visit Carl's Jr to try their carboriffic fare for my first feast day in a fortnight.

Burgers: delicious, juicy, and prone to fallout both liquid and solid.

Chips: less like a salt lick and more like a

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Friday!

After two weeks of staying on the wagon and losing weight by the gram, I can break out and get some naughty foods.

I'm working in a new phrase in regards to my HAM plans and agenda to conquer my gaseous dreams, and that is: "and that's okay."

Like this:

  • I didn't make any headway on conquering boxes for Idle Game Maker... and that's okay.
  • I needed an afternoon's degaussing from my stress... and that's okay.
  • I spend the evening scheduling episodes
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Thursday already?

Like Arthur Dent, I can't quite get the hang of Thursdays. They sneak up on me and surprise me with things like - impending Fridays.

It isn't a Gaming Night, but it is a Cleaning Day. On top of that, I have self-imposed goals like my novel, the Instant, the flash fanfic, learning Java, and doing something for one of my other side projects...

I've decided to split my HAM on days of X. Like today, my X is unriddling how boxes

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Do the Priority Shuffle!

Prioritising my HAM has helped me get shit done. Yay. Progress varies and I can shift between a minimum of one technically-working product and a currently broken product by commenting out a few lines.

BUT... I'm not doing that, today.

Today, my post literature priorities involve:

  • furthering my education in Java, and
  • creating something that's technically operational in RPG Maker
  • either edit another ep of Oh My Mods or finally work up another scene of SESP

I've done enough futzing around with

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Shrink Day

I'm seeing my shrink today to see if I still have a brain in my fluffy little noggin. I'm guessing yes.

I'm gonna bring along the iPad because I actually committed some art between visits and there's a chance I might get struck with inspiration during the natter.

My priority list for the HAM when I can fit it in are:

  • The publically viewable stories
  • Patreon Tuesday
  • 500 words
  • Editing the last of the Oh My Mods footage so I can put
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Back into the rhythm

It is the last full week before Back To School. My little darlings have their shit sorted apart from lunchboxes, I think. Should still be able to get those long about Wednesday if they want them.

Because...

  • Today is cleaning day
  • Tomorrow is shrink visit

And thusly, the Wednesday is the only actual day I have guaranteed free so far. I will be asking the darlings whether or not they want a fresh lunchbox and I'm willing to bet Mayhem will answer

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I'm much better today

A good dose of sleep has helped me recover my energies, and the digestive upset seems to be over for the interim. Huzzah.

This means I can return to prioritising my HAM for the day.

So, in rough order of priority:

  1. Today's Instant
  2. Today's TAZ ficlet
  3. Second attempt at RPG maker
  4. Further education in Java
  5. Initiate education in idle game-making

I'm taking a half-hour between my working half-hours for my personal entertainment. Sanity HAM if you will. I'll see if it works

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