Fuck Off Anxiety!

A 6-post collection

Thursday, Day 4, Anxiety...

I've been online in one form or another since the 90's and I still don't know how to handle making someone angry on the internet. Which is why I'm awake at 1AM with no inclination to work on the journal because random shakes are a thing.

Fun times [/sarcasm].

Not planning to play the victim card, that's not a good look. I shall carry on in my beliefs, and work to be a better person by learning about things. It's the only way to be to be honest.

The case count is down to six again. Fingers crossed for a continuing lowering of that number.

In the news:

  • The people who knew about the horrendousness at Parliament just... keep... turning up
  • The man who allegedly did it is now in hospital
  • Muppet still screwed because lawsuits and legal tangles
  • At least 30 US kids died of MIS-C, the post-covid syndrome
  • Survey says, Aussies don't want to do much about Australia Day
  • Investigation into the Parliament nightmare is actually supported by ScoMo
  • Experts mystified by India's drop in Plague cases
  • Vaccine hesitancy "concerning" and considering how quickly it happened, I'm not that surprised
  • "White identities" chart causes outrage amongst those called out. Check it out here I think I fall somewhere between "white critical" and "white traitor" because of both abject cowardice and pure inability to have the power to change anything... (tag yourself...)
  • Myanmar caught lying by satellite
  • Popular Melbourne cafe had to close down because of repeated lockdowns. Well done, anti-science idiots, you're hurting so many others with your bullshit
  • Dude who started the latest outbreak with his Nebuliser says he told authorities about it repeatedly and they still authorised it
  • Four people fined $17K each in UK for lying about where they came from
  • Stupid tourists spreading the plague to Gorillas by taking selfies [Just. WHY? There is so much wrong to unpack here]
  • Bitcoin still soaring

It's 4AM. Time to write something.

Fucking Anxiety at it Again

Whenever I try something big-for-me, there's always that spike of utter, abject terror that ends up with me hurting myself in strange and interesting ways.

For instance, yesterday I spilled hot soup on myself.

I wasn't hungry (warning sign) so I made myself a big ol' undertow mug of chicken stock broth. In the process of transferring the cup from the electric kettle stand to the bench where I planned to stir in the cream, I bumped the mug against the edge

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I did it!

I sent Adapting off and now the waiting game begins. The last potential publisher gets to wait until July or the other lot gets back to me, whichever happens first. They are my last, best hope (help me Obi-Wan Kenobi...). One gets back in 30 days, so word by the 12th of March or they don't want me. Their loss.

But I did it. I was brave and sent off the files they demanded. Yay me. Now I have most of an

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Why panic about this?

My anxiety is kicking my arse again. Or maybe the word is "still". I don't even know why I'm so hyped up about today. Most of the things I have to fret about are pretty much taken care of.

  • Mayhem doing tests - big whoop. It's a lot of hurry up and wait followed by brief intervals of people doing their thing. We're not going to get results for ages, either.
  • Today's Wordpress thing - big whoop. I have five potential article
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Firkin Anxiety

Yesterday was quite a bit more adventure than I was prepared to deal with. I was following the busses to Brisbane to visit the Kelvin Grove campus of QUT so I could keep an eye out on Miss Chaos whilst she had a fun day of learning.

Which would have been fine except I misplaced the busses at the very last turn and got the first parking space I could achieve.

As I predicted, I got frelling lost. I got absolutely, hopelessly,

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