Dear Diary

A 3611-post collection

::Cracks Knuckles:: Okay. I've got this.

We're back up to nine days of a plague-free Queensland. So I should, in theory, be back to writing in my novel. Right?

I dunno. I can certainly try.

When I'm done with today's Instant, I can load up that one file and my self-amusement file [which is nearly done] and see which one wins the day. I'm putting my bet on the self-amusement because I'd much rather watch a character discover acceptance on the worst day of their life than do the slow and steady progress to characters gambling their whole lives on their dearest and most impossible dreams.

Like... they're going to win it in the end, but not by the end of the first book. That's what the third book is for. More or less. It's a long and hard journey and they're definitely going to get a happily ever after, but... Going through the hard journey is taxing to write.

Especially considering the insanity running rife through the world right now.

Bullshit like:

  • Two blokes from the Melbourne Suburbs attempted to flee to Queensland, using the impeccable illogic that if they go to a place with no plague then they will be safe from said plague. It's this exact "logic" that lead to plagues spreading throughout history
  • One bloke makes a face mask out of silver [skewed logic: Silver has been proven to have minor health benefits when consumed in extremely small amounts. Something something tearing bacteria and virii apart because molecular somethingorother, therefore mask of silver will protect from Covid-19] so the NEXT bloke makes a mask out of gold just to flex? I don't get it, but it is a thing
  • Panic buying returns and people still haven't learned about TP it seems
  • Pauline "I'm not a racist butt" Hanson has called the people locked down in high-density government housing dirty foreigners who are all on drugs in a move that surprises only a very select few
  • Economists are wondering how this could have happened when they were the ones pushing for Victoria to open way too early, including the astroturf campaign to protest and reopen way too early
  • Oh noes this could impact the MELBOURNE CUP, the only reason people want to go to Melbourne, apparently 9_9 Just run the horses in front of empty stadiums like all the other sensible sport people ffs
  • Doctors are the only people calling out for a reinvigoration of restrictions in a rare display of some motherborn firkin sense at gorram last
  • In another rare display of some motherborn firkin sense, experts are watching a strain of swine flu in China like a hawk. Hooray team
  • Kanye West is saying he's going to run for President. Yes, really. And hey, if a washed up reality TV star can get the office, why not a musical artist? Cue the racists raising hell, folks

Onwards to creating fiction, and I have a delivery in the mail. It may well be the headphone earpieces I ordered a little back. It's not yet time for the comic book I pre-ordered like a literal year ago.

Today's going to be some degree of fun.

Stream Morning Whee

Toastyglow is working some magic, and I am not able to focus on anything else. With luck, I shall be done with today's story before noon. I can hope.

I did manage to do a lot of faffing about, yesterday, and almost zero writing. Since I don't have carbs to stress about, I might actually get another section of the CYOA I'm obsessed with completed.

Then it's two more to go and I can post that mofo somewhere. Woot.

In the news:

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Indulgence Day

It's Saturday, and I've just consumed an entire pizza [prawns and mushrooms yum] and I am trying to take a break from being bothered by the world for a day.

Today's PLN, such as it is, is thus:

  • [X] Lie in
  • [X] Eat carbs
  • [ ] Instant story
  • [ ] Fun project(s)
  • [ ] Enjoy myself

I've already heard that the Karen Squad in Victoria and NSW are attempting to get themselves smuggled into Queensland, and the idiot who rode the train while infected is facing an

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Paper Chase!

It's been literal years since Mayhem got his Autism diagnosis [then known as Asperger's, which is now part of ASD yay] and I have since misplaced any paperwork I had regarding his diagnosis. Three guesses what he needs for the employment mob?

Yup.

The paperwork related to the thing.

So. Today, we are on the hunt for the paperwork necessary to go ahead with whatever the employment mob wants. Fun times.

I have not been writing very fast at all, especially not

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Wednesday? Oof

Third day of the week and I can barely concentrate on the fun writing, so yeah. No book progress this week. Apparently, the conjunction of my state re-opening1 and the spikes in Victoria and New South Wales have set my noggin off into Panic Mode(tm) in which most of my energy is looking for any kind of news and then worrying about it.

God damn, this plague has got me tied in knots.

We currently have an abundance of bread,

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Reset?

I was doing so well. Then I forgot to write my alloted words yesterday. I'm feeling a little frayed around the edges and maybe taking a relaxed week might fix things in my head.

If this were Normal Output Mode, I would have five weeks left to finish this book of mine. Part one of a trilogy. This year has been the WORST year to start new projects with high ambitions because all my energy has been expended on anxiety about the

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Shenanigans Ahoy!

School holidays have begun once more and I now have very little structure in my days. Woot? I dunno. Beloved has purchased for me a digital box set of Star Control [I, II, III, and Origins] and I want to know the proper order to play the same before I get going. I may or may not stream it. I dunno.

BUT...

Mayhem has A Thing in which he shall eventually acquire a paying job, today. Here's hoping it plays through after

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Stream Morning Shenanigans

Toastyglow is streaming this morning, but it's like an hour hence. Less than that since I just spaced out for like twenty minutes.

I made bread in full anticipation of taking a loaf to my mum. The day I baked it, someone in Queensland came down with the plague, so we're back on counting up from one.

Hello, day one. What shenanigans are in the news?

  • Muppet keeps claiming the plague is "going away"
  • Evidence to the contrary says there are more
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Saturday, Saturday!

::refrains from singing the entire song:: I'm having an indulgence day and, thanks to cyclone migraine, I'm also awake at just past midnight. Whee.

It's 2AM and I feel I've had enough faffing about. I need to get on with shit so I can spend all day faffing about.

Onward to the story and, true to my resolution not to stress myself out on the weekends, I am not paying any attention to the outside world. Fuck it. I gotta look after

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It's 3AM. Whee!

I've been awake for two hours. Since it's also Bread Day(tm), I have used my time to feed the Starters [now named Wilson and Ingrid. Wilson is the all-wholemeal Starter, and Ingrid is the one from the Instructions I found somewhere on the interwebs] and begin the process of Bread.

I also have savoury crackers planned, so that's going to be "fun".

Beloved just came in to say "goodnight" and I told them I had Ingrid on my desk.

Today also

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Okay. I've got this.

If I want to use CS Paint Ex [which I have purchased on special], I have to use it on either my desktop or my lappy, with my iPad acting as a spare screen. Because if I wanted to use it on my iPad, I'd have to pay a monthly fee and fuck that noise for a bad joke.

I would much rather use my desktop than my lappy. BUT... my desktop has some defunct chips in it that prevent the update

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Two Down...

Nine hundred and Ninety-eight to go. I got a response from my last query and...

[Shown here: Rejection #2 from D4EO agency]

My writing is evidently not compelling. Okay. I was also given the tip to tell folks more about myself. Agents want to know about the authors, even when the authors think of themselves as dull.

Next to pitch towards in PSLiterary and I honestly can't remember if I've sent Adapting their way previously or no. It's a three-paragraph query letter

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Hooray, it's the anxiety alarm clock

I've got one of those "It's do-able, but..." schedules today, and thank GROP the shrink visit is virtual because there's a high likelihood that I am going to be rat-faced tired before 5PM so I can start the cycle again. Whee.

It's 1AM so I'm officially too late to take a HTML-sleep [aka HTP-5, the nice concoction that metabolises into melatonin. If I took it now, I would be rat-faced exhausted all firkin day.

So. I'm up at one in the morning

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Six Days Virus-free in QLD

I've been keeping tabs on Queensland Health's page about the cases in my allegedly sunny state1 link here. So far, for six days, there have been no new cases. I might actually get to relax very soon.

Won't that be nice?

In the news today, Victoria has had spikes left right and center. This is possibly in direct relation to all those idiots who wanted to open up when the plague was still raging, and then refusing to enact safety protocols

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Stream Morning, But...

I just got the news that Toasty's stream will be happening closer to 7AM than 1AM, so I theoretically have the time to do my output nonsense and whatnot before the fun begins.

Allegedly.

With capital timing, Mayhem has come by for a bullshit session so my attentions are divided. Yay.

So I shall be attempting to write a story and sate Mayhem's desire for BS.

Wish me luck, I shall need it.

The news has only mentioned the reason why Victoria

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