Learning Things

A 6-post collection

So I fucked up. Again

I'm busy trying to be rational towards my anxiety, and it's not exactly working. I've made mistakes with my narrative choices before. It should be no big deal.


Except I've done this twice in the space of one month and I'm normally more careful about this kind of thing and, like the impending speeding ticket in the red tape stage of landing on me, I'm afraid this will somehow wreck my life plans.

Screwing up stories by saying things sideways or omitting a fragment of phraseology is not the end of the world. If I keep telling my anxiety that, maybe it'll sink in. It's not the end of my writing career either. It is a simple and small mistake and, taken at scale1 should not be that big a deal.

Try convincing the side of my brain that hates me. It's not going well.

However, I started the daily Instants as a means of learning how to write good. A means by which to stretch myself, push my own envelope, and maybe fucking learn how to communicate without needless infodumping.

It's still a work in progress. So am I.

The most difficult thing in my life is allowing myself to be a human being and make dumbass mistakes now and again. Even as often as twice in one month. Life doesn't come with a report card and I won't get held down for a B- in communication skills.

I just need to learn where, exactly, to hold my thumb on the verbiage so that the intended message is clear. Sounds easy enough, right?

Sounds easy. I'm still learning these things... and that's okay.

I'm still learning how to be okay with this. A lifetime of gloom-and-doom prophecies from those around me, telling me that one mistake can ruin my life, has not helped with this outlook. Nor has my tendency, once trying, to wind up being very trying.

I'm working on it. I promise.

Let's see how much better I can do today.

  1. 2200+ stories and counting versus two readers with bruised feelings and concerns about my politics. Statistically, I should be fine. Emotionally OTOH...


My little darlings have two weeks off from school and I am already suffering from the effects. Not horrendously, just battling the inevitable tides of inconvenience like King Canute.

Did you know that malls don't unlock their doors at 6AM? Thus making certain that the convenience of ATM's is therefore inconvenient because you can't get in to get your money?

I didn't.

So instead of doing a money run when I get up and therefore can't forget it, I have to watch

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Educational Moment

I like learning new things. And since I'm turning forty-five this year, that means that I'm well beyond Douglas Adams' statement that anything invented after I'm thirty-five is strange and scary. I'm one of those annoying people who act like a new thing should have always been like that.

Just ask Beloved. I'm always unimpressed by their programming of a new thing. No "yes, this is just what I wanted." It's all "why didn't they do this earlier?" Much frustrate. Very wearing.

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I've learned some things

In my forays towards having my own business, I've learned a few things. And in my forays towards actually losing some weight again, I've learned a few other things.

First: The exercise part of the activity app on the Apple iWatch is a piece of ableist shit.

Why? Well because it only counts exercise as something above a brisk walk. This automatically excludes the elderly and the chronically ill. Thanks a bunch, guys. I'm now resigned to having that green circle in

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Why Inkitt is so Firkin Great

Some of you who are still paying attention to my tumblr will be aware that I have a few stories up for offer at their contest, Reinvent Reality

Really sharp-eyed readers will know I'm currently at number 14 in the top 20.

Which is pretty firkin amazing for a story I put up only a few days ago.

Heck, it's damned amazing considering that I wrote this story, longhand, whilst I was waiting for the postie to turn up with my copy

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Flashy things! This is a nifty little disco lamp [not so little, actually, it’s about the size of a cat] available at the dollar shops...

Flashy things!

This is a nifty little disco lamp [not so little, actually, it’s about the size of a cat] available at the dollar shops for less than $30.

It took me a while to find a screwdriver long enough to take it apart, and then even longer to find the tiny little screws at the handle.

After weeks of procrastination, I was able to get the dimmer switch off. Tweezers got under the switch cover and the pliers got

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