Meh

A 2-post collection

October, Willpower, and changes of PLN

It's October, and I would be putting Adapting out towards another potential partner, but I feel so good about Baen's tracking system that I'm willing to wait for official notice of rejection before seeing if the grass is that green on the other side of the fence.

I was gonna just spend all day writing. Maybe even get into that TAZ prompt that's been neglected in my in-box.

I was gonna write my Instant and then take a leisurely drive up to the nearest ATM to get this weeks money and then deliberately not buy anything because public holidays are supposed to be holidays for the public.

BUT... my Beloved wants to see a movie today. And it's not... exactly... appealing. I dunno. I've lost all my zest for watching things at the moment. And this one looks like a dumb Buddy Movie where important plot points will move out of the way for other plot points based on the Rule Of Funny or something.

Just... not in the mood, you know?

Or I'm getting to that stage in my life where very few things are interesting any more.

Hard to tell.

The big hump

Depression-inspired whining below the cut.

So I’m nearing the end of KFZ. I should be glad, right?  I should be over the moon.

But no. I’m terrified. I’m nauseated. I’m… sucked dry.

It’s like the atmosphere is ten times thicker than it should be, but only for me. It’s hard to breathe and it’s hard to want to breathe. It’s hard to inspire myself to do anything. Even lifting my hands to type

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