Feeling heavy

I feel heavy.

Not a physical heaviness. More a spiritual weight that drags me down to the point where I don’t feel like anything can lift me back up.

I don’t know why I’m feeling this down.

The house is clean. I’m on top of the laundry. I’m on top of the dishwashing. I’m on top of the floor - keeping it clean, that is.

I should be on top of the world.

But I’m not.

I feel like if I lie down, I’ll just sink into the centre of the earth.

And nobody would notice.

I want/need to do something stupidly rewarding. Or rewardingly stupid. Something that makes me clap and squeal because it’s all working… and then catch myself out for being a massive nerd/tard.

But I can’t think of anything ‘cause I’m down. Feh.

I’ll play some music and some Minecraft and hope that works.

But don’t worry - by the time you read this, I’ll be long out of this feeling. Or into a new one. I’m very easily distracted :)